Huntington Lanes Huntington Beach CA Vintage Bowling Alley shirts . My narc ex held onto all the clothes and shoes and jewellery and other material items – part of the gathering from the spoils of abuse. But she held onto other things which I was surprised about – she kept all the birthday, valentines, anniversary and Christmas cards I sent her – she kept all our photos – she kept the playlist I made for us to listen to – she kept the recordings of the songs I sang to her. Even when there was a silent treatment she would tell me afterwards how she had looked at our hundreds of photos – it’s like she didn’t want to do the ST but had no control. I think – sometimes – that she really did love me as best she could – she wanted it – but her mental instability always got in the way – she had no control over her toxic behaviour – it consumed her and I think in a certain moment she hated herself for doing what she did.
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Huntington Lanes Huntington Beach CA Vintage Bowling Alley shirts . Her fundamental gravest fear of being abandoned was the story of her life – all those who got under the famous mask would eventually leave her. She knew it. It was a matter of time. Sometimes I think of the good times and wish it was like that always but as the relationship limped on, the dark times became the more dominant and it became a question of me deciding when enough is enough no matter how hard it was. We were together four and a half years – rarely every a calm week – always drama and chaos and lies and deception. If only she could have controlled her uncontrollable behaviour. We ended after the first two years and then got back together – we lasted another two and a half years. It’s now 6 weeks since the breakup and I know she will have moved on – as is the way of the narc – but I know from the previous time that all our sentimental stuff will still be there as it was before – even possibly my clothes – in her moments of silent treatment her daughter said she would wear my shirts to bed.
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